Thursday, November 16, 2017

A Rundown of Guys You'll Possibly Fall in Love With!?


Love is one of the most common topic everybody talks about. It is a common thing, seems easy to discuss but a hard thing to explain. Young and old, one way or another, we experience its mystery.


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So I look back to the past, observe others and realized that in a way, somehow you could classify these various men. First on the list would be the "Best Friend." The ultimate tropa, guy friend in a barkada and could even be a childhood comrade. You know each other too well which could be a very good foundation for something better or even great. However, with the trust you give, seldom you get blinded that we are still humans and we easily commit mistakes. First love became the first heartache and a very bad one. A slap on the face of the reality that life is not a fairytale and men can still be a fool like a boy even with age.
"The Stranger", he's someone new. You never knew him but your path crossed through common friends, interest or the most romantic word destiny. Then love is on full bloom but then density happen and you sink again. How can we be stupid enough to trust some stranger after being played by someone you shared your whole life growing up?
The person that caught your eyes and maybe almost your heart is the being we know as our "Crush." Though, we were swoon by something special, sometimes this thing could be one sided. What we feel might be different from what he feels which is a step closer to a heartbreak.
Bridges are a common thing in relationships, we find love from someone we know. You know "That Guy" that was introduced by a friend, a sibling, a class mate or whoever. Closely related to a stranger but someone links you together which made the connection possible. Referrals might be nice especially if you trust the person who made it possible but then again we don't necessarily know the person better if we get really close. Yup, close like he holds your heart but you must let go of each other.
"The Passionate Dude", he's someone you meet on seminars, competition or any school or company activities. One way or another, you shared a common liking on a lot of stuff which will make you feel like it's meant to be. Sadly, like these activities, you could end up crying because you're just the flavor of the week or month. Someone he likes to have a fling for a bit and let go the moment he wants reality to happen again.
"The Next Good Thing" is the guy who actually has a thing for one of your friends but could not get a yes so he ended up choosing you. Maybe, you are an easy target or he realized you're a better choice. However, soon you'll realized why he can't pass even the first base with your friend.
You don't need a lot of introductions for the next lad because he is "The Famous One." He could be the crush ng bayan, a model, actor or whatever that made him known to all. The relationship would start with a lot of haters but if you ignore it all, it might end with a happy ending. Negatively, you don't like the spotlight and you choose to let go. He's just over the top and you like being under.
Then you will meet somebody who aspire to be famous and trying so hard but ends up to be "The Mama's Boy." He could be more vain than you and you might feel the guy in the relationship which will cause the relationship to rumble into pieces. Badly, you two could not even save a friendship due to his ego.
With your past relationships on the bag. once in awhile, you'll meet "The Virgin." Scary to enter a relationship with someone who's experiencing it for the first time. True, it feels like being in love for the first time but just like the former, you get to handle the relationship which will make you see that he's just a newbie and you're not ready to be a trainer.
A blast from the past or "The Returning One", he's someone you used to be with but you decided to let go. Maybe, you've grown and decided to give it a try again this time. However, you end up realizing that your yesterday better stay in the past and remember once is a mistake, twice is a choice and third is suicide.
Then another version of the returning one could go back again or a stranger that is all about the game. He's "The Fling" and he could be the one or not but it will break your heart or hurt you because you might feel like he could be the one. Don't ever settle for less than you deserve and guys who like the short time definitely does not deserve your whole being.
Many were mentioned but still a lot is missing. There could be "The Exemplary One", he's the artist, band member, athlete or the cumlaude that you admire. It might be something but you decided to stay as somebody who adores the person from a far. Then "The Bad Boy", he's someone who might never meet the parents and your friends might hate him too. However, you got swoon by his angas and what girl doesn't like a brawn but reality will slap you that it's good for a short period and not for keeps. Another would be "The Applicant", he would be the dude who is making moves to cath your attention but you'll eventually see that he's just trying to see if he might be able to get a yes from you. You're just a challenge for him and he will soon be gone, faster than the time he choose to come.
Our romantic endeavors varies and you might meet some or all of them or even someone else but this all ends in a story we all like which is love. Whether we choose to fight for it and hold on or let go and be free, love is an adventure full of ups and downs. Nevertheless, we should keep going because the Universe, in all its being and power will make sure that you will get that happy ending fitted for a princess or even a queen.
So what other types of men you have met in your own journey?

Friday, November 7, 2014

Emzpire

My journey started very dark and gloomy. A young girl who just decided to leave home and be independent. It was not easy at first for I feel so lost but little by little, I was able to take charge of life.

First step was for me to find a job to be able to live. Money is not everthing but it actually matters a lot. Applying and waiting for responses is hard but in the end I'm happy I was hired.

Starting was not easy, I don't have a single idea of what work will be. Answering calls from half way around the world. Talking to strangers like an expert. It was bumpy in the beginning but everything became better.

I have met a lot of people and made frineds. Life at work became fun like moments spend with best buddy.

Everything was turning well until a storm came which have pushed me to say goodbye. It was hard to accept but I do know that things happen for a reason. I just need to find my way again and be on track.

No matter what happen and wherever I go, I'll be always grateful. I will always treasure the people I have met who turned out to be great friends. I am taking the next step with an eager mind, a strong heart and a happy soul. I can do anything for I believe and I have people to back me up.

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Aishiteru

                I started not believing in fairy tales, the moment I realized that happy endings don’t always exist after all I’m not a princess nor it is possible for me to find a prince. I know perfection is a myth for I keep on falling and breaking but I know that no matter how unending my downfall is I can still go on as long as I move forward. I know that dreams are just pigment of my imagination and that I should wake up and face the reality at front. At first, we tend to know about the impossible and believe on it until we realized how difficult and impractical it is so we see the truth and know that life can be wicked but it is great.
                As a child who always thought how wonderful the world is, I never thought that there is such thing as horrifying around me. Until I grow older and faces them on my way, I realized how imperfect and crazy it is to live but on the same time being alive is a gift, a chance, a blessing meaning it is something that means a lot.
                With maturity comes more understanding about the meaning of once presence in this world we call earth. Maybe, one of those things which is closely important as life itself is love. I always find it odd that the hardest things in this world to figure are four-letter words like life, love, evil, pain, hate and etc. But I believe that the next important thing to life is love and as human, it troubles us a lot.
                Loving is both a blessing and curse. It can make or break people. In a simple sense just like anything in this world, love is like a double-sided sword whether we accept it or not. It can provide both positive and negative effect in a person or both persons involved.
                I always consider love as a mystery that is so present but hard to figure out. I had my fair share of experiencing how to fall in love, be in love and fall out of it. Young as I may but I know everyone that have undergone the journey of love have done those things. The butterflies and sparks of electricity in the beginning as you plunge in the adventure of love, the happiness and hardships of staying on that so called relationship and of course the worse endings that pains. But no matter how repetitive love can be, we people don’t give up on it for we know that in time that one special person will come and complete you as a person, finally he or she will conclude your expedition alone for one will become two and eventually be one in heart.
                No age, no status, no standards, I mean nothing qualifies as a perfect love or an ideal partner. It can come in the moment least expected to anybody. Thus, no wonder, I had my fair share of it. The experiences I have are learning and memories that I will always remember but how long or short the relationship have been does not assure the probability of a successful bond between two people. They say that loving somebody is giving that someone the right to hurt you. Indeed, it happens, painful is not enough to describe the feeling for it feels like hell but instead of damaging yourself, you need to learn to accept the ugly truth and move on because when a door closes, a window opens. End of love is a chance for new beginnings in romance.
                Relationships come and go but the feeling of being in love will always remind you of how great love is. I have fall in and out of love with a guy for a million times. I have been hurt, lied, angered and other damaging stuff had happened but still I am an absolute believer of love and is always open minded about it. Indeed, I have my fears but I am weak to ignore the feeling. If blood allows us to live, the feeling of love keeps us going. I was so young when I allowed myself to enter the portal of romance which turned into a horrible fiction but I believe that with age comes change and with change come growth. But as we grow older, things become more complicated to be handled but it should not be a hindrance to anyone.
                I never thought I would say goodbye to you for I have thought that I will forever share life with you. I don’t know what happen between us but one thing I’m sure is that it’s about time we let go and move forward. God knows how hard I tried to keep the relationship work but shit happens which could not be stopped, ignored and eventually it damages. Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to do especially to somebody you love and you have considered important but let us not ignore the fact that it is not working anymore. It pains me, everything that is happening but staying in the relationship won’t solve the glitch but will make it worse. Before we destroy each other more, I guess it is about time to let go and set free each other. You will be always special to me and it sadden me that it was not a happy ending for both of us but eventually we will have that so called ending but sadly not with each other but with different people.
                People always see me so strong but they don’t know how weak I am especially when we talk about emotions and feelings. I have tried to make sense of everything, indeed I could not disregard the truth that I am truly a thinker. I wanted to say it and explain stuff personally but it is impossible but I hope that we both understand and agree, I wish you all the best in life especially the happiness that you truly deserve. I apologize for everything especially for giving you miseries and I hope in time we learn to forgive and forget and maybe just maybe we can be friends.

                Goodbyes are always hard but reality should be faced and not to be snub. For with acceptance, comes the urge and strength to move forward and continue with the unknown. In time, things will eventually make sense and will be better. Shit comes and go but we have one life to live so live it at the moment.

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Notion...

                Life is so precious, every moment matters, whether good or bad, it made everything the way it is because of each single instances but still time will come when you think back about the past. The wrong things you did, the bad situation, the ugly moments, you want them all to be repeated, to be erased, to be forgotten but time passed could not be return anymore, all we have is memories.
                Looking back in the dark lane of life can be hideous but it can also be worth to remind one self and to learn from it. After all, nobody is perfect and nobody is meant for perfection for uniqueness will be gone once it can be achieved. Instead of thinking about those lame stuffs just think of the lessons it gave, the experience and the feeling it caused.

Mind over matter

                Living alone is never easy, the hardest part is sustaining life itself physically or primarily financially. Thinking about the past, remind me of how dumb was I, not thinking about the future but only the present and my own happiness. My lavish spending may not be grandeur as rich people are but in my level, it was too much. Especially because I never thought how extravagant I am living, I thought I was just fine. The time when I lost an earring, a necklace or a ring, any fine jewelry that always has meanings for it was given by people who are dear to me but I was careless to take care of it when I was younger. But it was even dumber of me to pawn it and never took it back. Those jewelries are just physical matters but I never thought it’s essence for survival until now that I have nothing.

Me and my big mouth

                I have always been the talkative one but I don’t talk senseless, I know that for a fact. I never thought I’ll lose my voice, my confidence in expressing my thoughts, feelings and my soul but I am now. Seems like I lost the will and the urge of saying something for the fear of making a mistake, I remember how mean of me to stay stuff that was brought more of my anger than what I should really say. The words I can say as judgments not even thinking of giving a doubt or knowing more. Yeah, sometimes my brain really shut down just to allow my stupid big mouth to blabber so I always need to be cautious.

Mistakes after mistakes

                I don’t agree with the idea that man makes mistakes just simply because of being human for we have brains to think, heart to feel and a soul to connect everything but still we end up doing wrong things. one thing I know and I’m sure is that we know we are making a mistake and we know it is wrong but still we continue in doing it for the brain is sometimes get pause simply because we want to. I know it is wrong but sometimes we distract our self from what is supposed to be in order to have what we want to be. Selfless it is at times and we forgot reality that in the end we suffer the consequences of those decisions and actions. The dumbest thing is not learning from it and repeating it again and again then we just say sorry for being humans. We are given brain to use it not to shut it down and whether we have an idea or not of what we are doing, in the end we must be ready for the effects of our choices and acts. After all, nothing happens unless we allow it to happen, we hold the path on where our life will go.


                Yeah, I am dumb so what? I don’t care because that is who we are as humans, we are dumb and living is learning, understanding everything in order to make life worthwhile. It is heart breaking and may cause sadness even tears but we should never forget the teachings it give in order to lead our path, maybe not in the right way but at least in the path where we are meant to be.

Friday, July 26, 2013

Amour ala Cyber world


Inside the world of systems and programs in technology’s creation is a world everyone knows and enjoyed but a world full of uncertainties, what may this do with one lost soul?
                I am lost, I am uncertain and not sure of what to do in my life which is so new to me. I am Cassidy, a 23 years old province girl from the Philippines. Despite geographical location, I’m not clueless about the stuff happening around me. I have been alone for two months now after I decided to run away from home and have my freedom and independence. It sucks to live the life you always know and venture the world starting over. With no home, job and anybody to run to, life is just so meaningless but I am a survivor and I’ll never give up on life. I lost my home but I can find a new one, I can find a job despite everything and maybe meet new people to be surrounded with to bring back the meaning that was lost.
                I can never forget that day when I decided to pack my bags and just leave with 3000 pesos on my pocket, who would believe I survive for two months. I went to the city and check in to a cheap hotel. Contacted my aunt and found a good boarding house then I am on the bus stop at the moment. Waiting what to do next and thinking how to start a new life from nothing. I plan of relocating, working and studying on the same time but man needs money so I need to find a job first. Job hunting is not hard but requirements are hard so life is moving slow for me.
                My usual day routine is as simple and crap, wake-up, eat breakfast, take a shower, do some chores, eat dinner then sleep. I figure out that this is not living and the way I want it to be thus I decided to buy a broadband and go online. My usual social networking site is of no use anymore thus I tried to find a new world and I found it with Chat Avenue. I started hanging out at the college chat rooms, it was fine at first until you figured out that everyone there are just perv but I am happy to meet a friend though it did not last at all. I took a vacation with my aunt and in my return check out general chat and there I found home. I met people and made connections, it was a cool world of different people but friendly people. We argue about stuff or dream about things, cyber life is a blast.

                Now my everyday surrounds at being online inside the chat room and it is never dull but fun. I never thought everything is possible inside the cyber world but it is. Here I met one person, I never thought I will be attached with but I am. We told stuff that is so personal and it just happen, we both fell it, and we fell in love. Is it really love and can it be possible within and beyond this cyber world? No one can tell but time will decide wherever this goes. For now, I am happy to be in this world, meeting and talking to people, making connections. They give my life a sense of meaning, a sense of fun and I will be forever grateful.

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

My thoughts


Dark Soul
                As requested by the person itself so I oblige lol.
                You came in a way that people know your presence with a name and font that catches attention. Your love for darkness is same as your love for people and me like that in you. Often stays at his dark corner so my advice is to have some light, if light burns have some candles then.  You maybe a dark soul but a good soul, you bring the goodness and happiness in the darkness. Continue being you dark. Thank you for the friendship, mwah!
What now?
                Oh yeah with all the drama last night I am very affected but having a sleep made me realize that just like me, people fall in and out of love and you can’t stop that feeling so if people hate me, I don’t care anymore. I will continue on loving despite the hate for my heart is pure and forgiving. I will continue to understand and be not affected by the hate for life is too short to let problems matter. I am all smiles and happiness now and forever.
The Real Deal
                This is what I wanted to write today:
                In this crazy and creepy world full of unknown are thing that we could not deny that may exist but still we are so unsure. I have my own share of creepy stuff so here it is.
The man in my sleep
                I don’t know why but whenever I sleep wrongly, someone comes and visits me in a way that I end up losing my breath. Everytime I sleep on my back and started to visit dreamland, I get the feeling that someone is laying on top me in a way that is suffocating me. I try to wake up, talk and move but I could not, a can see a figure of a face with horns and evil. so I close my eyes and pray, hoping this creep leave me and it did thus I try to never sleep on my back
Dreams and nightmares
                Sometimes leaving reality is a blessing but at times a curse. In my slumber, I have dreams and nightmares but I wish that the second will just leave or be forgotten. Whenever I dream badly, I try to wake up and if I did, I go into multiple instances of waking up in multiple places. It sucks but I know I need to keep on trying to wake up because I may end up stuck in dreams and nightmares which are never good.
Black Cat
                Superstitious belief state that black cat is bad luck everytime it walks in front of you but then the world is flooded by feline especially in my neighborhood. We used to have a black cat and at first I was hesitant at its presence but soon enough love it until it died and left us with its silver kids which are now annoying. Now that I left home, I am usually visited by a black cat with green eyes. I know he comes to check on the garbage but it creeps me out. It comes at night when everyone’s at sleep and if I shoo it off, it will stop and look me into the eyes and jump out. I don’t know why but I feel so scared about that tiny little feline, I have always been afraid of cats, black or not, I don’t like them for they scratch and poops around. When they meow it feels like there talking and I get irritated, I know silly me but I hope cats will leave me soon.

                Well that’s it for today, so fox if you have the chance to read this, see I did not write about you. Maybe next time, well I am creep out by a lot of stuff but for now that’s all I can remember, adios!

Monday, July 22, 2013

Who am I?





                Anywhere we go, we are asked by one common question, who are you? We usually give facts but do we really know who we are? Figuring oneself is like a puzzle but time will come that we can so here is my answer to my own puzzle.
                I was born December 26, 1991 in Cabatuan, Iloilo to Mr. Cerilo M. Colomer & Mrs. Jennifer E. Colomer. I was named Stephanie after St. Stephen, the martyr, the saint of the day I was born, Acey was added by my aunt it originated from the word ace which means first. My name therefore stands for martyrdom at its finest and I do good by name making it true. People call me in a lot of ways sometimes they give me various nicknames but I like to be called Acey for I want to be first but not a martyr.
                I was raise in the tiny little town of Barbaza with my mother, grandparents, aunt and my brother John Leonard. My upbringing in the province is not that bad, it did not even close my doors to the real world. Both of my parents were working, my father is into catering business at Riyadh, Saudi Arabia while my mother is a teacher in our town. I was totally raised by both of my grandparents and aunt but my grandmother died and my aunt went working abroad so I ended up growing up early and maturing to take care of my brother and do everything my mother can’t for I know how dedicated is she with her work and I admire her for that and hate her at times.
                Growing up and being the one in-charge made me a strong person but I enjoyed my life, always being the mature one, the one you can run to and depend on, a person ready to help. Happiness for me is being with and helping people I love and care about. I find solace in school and the sense of learning thus I started studying at three years old. I keep on repeating preparatory level three times, cried my heart out to be in the first grade by six and finished high school at age 16. I took up nursing for two years and shifted to accounting due to medical reasons and the rest is still unknown.
                I love a lot of stuff. I love God, my family and everyone around me matters a lot for they make my life a paradise. I love procrastinating, reading, writing, watching movies or tv, surfing the web, eating, talking, hanging out and doing new stuff or taking an adventure. I also adore happy and nice people while I hate those who are mean, bad and fake. I hate back stabber and chit-chatter, I just hate haters and pessimist but I am a peace loving person so I don’t usually judge and gives everyone the reasonable doubt and chance to redeem oneself but anger and pain me and you’ll see the darkness in me. I am a great friend but even a greater enemy, rawr! I forgive but seldom forget so beware because I am aware. I am happy go lucky and just real, I don’t stress but have fun, have a laugh and just like enjoying stuff after all life is a 24/7 party, lol!
I am a dreamer, I wanted to be a soldier, a nun, nurse, lawyer, journalist and work on a bank or a company. I want to be a good cook especially baking and travel the world taking pictures. I want to own a resort, a restaurant, a cafĂ© and bakeshop. I want to live outside the country and come home when I get older. I want to publish a book someday, be a teacher or a psychologist and maybe be an advised giving column writer. I want to make a difference in people’s life that I can touch their mind, heart and soul to make the world a better place to live in. I want to be married someday on a private wedding in a church with someone I will loved forever and share a life with my two kids, a boy and a girl. I want to be successful but still enjoy life. I want to be forever happy and nice.
                I am like a double bladed sword for in everything I am, I do, I say is two conflicting instance. I can smile and be happy despite crying, sadness, having problems and anything worst. I say I’m fine even if I’m not, I say okay despite the fact that I wanted to say no. I give without expecting to receive, I am just selfless. Most of all, I love more than I am being loved.

                Whatever life may brings me, I will keep on fighting and never give up on it because I maybe not a fighter but I am a lover of life so that’s me for now. Toodles!